you'd have to forgive my sudden disappearance, mary jane. i do feel guilty with these long, unexcused absences without even a small note to let you know where i've gone to. truth is, i haven't really gone anywhere. not yet.

a week after i had the occasional "attack" involving the grief about my life not going anywhere else but down, i gave myself a good kick on the shins, good enough to wake me up and start sending out my resume like a desperate whore. and so pimp myself i did. and a week after that, someone answered--a hong kong employer who manufactures and retails toys. i was ecstatic and almost did a double loop when i got the invitation for an interview. i was set out to get the job, fight for it, flail myself into the ravine, teeth bared and guns blazing. and the employer, notorious for being strict and demanding (read: a slavedriver), liked this fighting spirit of mine, shining now more than ever. i have been polishing it for this kind of occasion.

and so. shenzen, china. who knows what's in store for me in this foreign city with its gleaming buildings, streamed roads and windows of the world? in 34 days, i'll find out.

for now, i have to know how the heck i could access blogs from there. a friend who stays in a nearby city said it's impossible. that, i think is the beginning of the sad part of this good news.